An Obsession with being Single.
Or rather, not being single. I hate it, and yet I like it. I like not having anyone to answer to, being able to make immediate decisions without having to wait on input from a 'partner', sleeping late, staying up late, getting up early or going to bed early, without anyone asking me why, or getting upset that I do. Eating a meal when I want to, and not being on a time table for someone else. Rushing home and rushing around making sure everything is okay before "he" walks in the door. Taking 2 hours in the bathroom if I want and not having "him" come in and plop his butt down and bother me. There are so many little things that are nice about being single and home alone.
But then there are those things that you miss too. Yelling back as you walk out the door "honey, I'm running to the store, do you want me to pick up anything for you?", having someone there to help you make those hard decisions and point out options that you don't think of on your own, someone to sleep in with on Sunday morning, stay up late with on Friday night, snuggle up with in the early evening hours and doze off with you. Someone to cook for and tell you how they like the food. Praising you for the hard work you do keeping the house in shape and making things easier for them when they've had a hard day at work. Someone to come in the bathroom and sit with you and talk about their day when you are taking that long overdue relaxing bath, maybe wash your back...or even sit in the tub with you.
Yep for every little reason that you enjoy being single, the same little reason can be turned to be enjoyed and appreciated by sharing it with someone. There are days I miss all the togetherness, and days I love being a lone individual. Sometimes we have no choice giving one of them up, and the other, we have all the choice in. I'm doing a balancing act in my mind right now, wanting both and not quite sure which one I want more.
Is there a point to this blog? Nope, just some rambling thoughts. I do that every now and then. When I've had too much time to think.
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It's been 22 years since I left my parent's home and I've lived alone all of those years except the 3 and a half I was married (not counting my son). While it would be wonderful to find the man of my dreams, as each year goes by and I keep kissing frogs, that possibility seems further and further away.
I also enjoy the independence of living alone, but I enjoyed living with my husband just as much. It was nice to have someone to come home to and it was certainly nice to have someone to help out around the house. My husband and I both worked so he was good about helping out around the house. He took out the trash, vacuumed and did the laundry. I cooked and he'd throw the dishes in the dishwasher. That was a huge help! And there's nothing that can replace the physical intimacy you can have with someone you love. That's really what I miss the most. I can do, and have done, all the rest by myself for years, but there's nothing like the smell of a man, the way it feels when he touches you, etc. etc.
The thing I've found is that at my age, the men who aren't married, aren't worth having because if they were, someone would have them already. I'd much rather be alone than to settle for something less than what I deserve, or less than what my son deserves.
So, in summary, I'll probably be single the rest of my life, buy some stock in duracell, get rich, and live happily ever after.
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I thought the same thing after many failures. Then I got lucky, and it wasn't at a bar. Hope you find the same luck. BTW, mine came from helping to move a piano one Saturday morning in June, 1995.
Life only goes around once, have fun and love, people. -VicNormal
Hey, some of us are just concentrating on other things. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Geez, thanks Sippy!!!
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Didn't mean to offend, but neither of y'all are my age.
Vic, I don't go to bars either.
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geez Sippi...you are NOT that old......
“Sure, the lion is king of the jungle but airdrop him into Antarctica, & he's just a penguin's bitch”
I know that, but kpaul's either in his late 20's or early 30's and Vic's in his 60's, so neither of them are my age.
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I'll have you know I'm 53...
Ok, ok, that's 35. Sorry. ;)
I thought you were younger than that. 35 isn't too old to have never been married. I recently met a guy who's 43 and never been married. Didn't take me long at all to find out why! He was an ass!
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and I'm 58 - but, close enough~btw, I know you don't go to bars, I was just trying to say that meetups are in the strangest of situations. I still wish you and CC a whole lotta luck!
Pixi is currently going out with a thirty something guy and she is closer to me than you in age.
Life only goes around once, have fun and love, people. -VicNormal
I know....go Pixarino! Surprisingly, I have a lot of younger guys ask me out, but I just don't think that's the best idea. The guys in their 20's are only looking for a sexual experience with an older woman. The guys in their 30's still don't know what the heck they want. They guys in their 40's, I don't want. Haven't dated anyone in their 50's, so I can't say anything good or bad on that decade.
Where I live, Vic, there just aren't many options nor are there many ways to meet people unless you go to church or bars. I don't do either. Not that I'm opposed to church, just haven't found one I liked and got tired of looking. It's a whole nuther world here in Meridian, Mississippi. If you're not from here, even though we moved here when I was in 4th grade, you're an outsider. If you're a liberal, which I am, fahgettaboutit! You're ostracized! So, unless and until I get outta this town, I believe I'm destined to be single.
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